The Ballad of Jimmy Governor

"Jimmy wanted to be white! He wanted to be white! He had more opportunities than any other Aboriginal man of his time!" This is what one of an Aboriginal curator said about Jimmy Governor.  Would it be true? Would it be really what Jimmy wanted in his life?

The story of Jimmy Governor is a 'memory walk' across a physical and social terrain, evoking many emotions and feelings. It brings out and play on all our human qualities: sorrow, pain, hate, regret, expression, success, joy and optimitism.

Jimmy Governor was three quarters full blood black and one quarter Irish. His fiery red hair clearly established his Irish heritage, but his black body and flat nose declared his aboriginality. Jimmy was handsome, kind, brave and intelligent young man.
Jimmy knew his worth compared to the white men.  He worked for them, he played cricket with them and was hired by the police force of the day as a tracker.
He achieved well at everything he did, but was treated with contempt by some of the white people because he did it so well and dared to declare he was their equal.

After his father's dearth, Jimmy married a white woman, Ethel Page. For Jimmy it was his right to marry a white woman, and he treated her with affection and acceptance, and love for the baby boy to whom she shortly after gave birth.
After he got married, Jimmy took his wife and new born baby with him to Breelong outside Gilgandra where he started to work for John Mawbey.
This was the beginning of the tragedy.

Ethel, Jimmy's wife, worked for no pay for the Mawbey family and suffered daily the taunts and ridicule of the entire family for marrying a black man. These insults she carried home to Jimmy, who daily suffered the jibes from his own people for his marrying of a white woman.
Ethel, young and inexperienced, grew ever angrier about her conditions compared with the fine home and benefits enjoyed by those who considered themselves her betters.

I won't post the whole story of Jimmy Governor here (I assume it is one of the well known story among Australian), but just briefly, members of Mawbey family continued to taunt Ethel and Jimmy and it triggered Jimmy to expose and ended up murdering them as well as nine other victims.

My question here is that was it just a simple exposion of anguish? that Jimmy couldn't control himself in the end and ended up murdering so many white people among the Mawbey's?

The answer I found and it probably isn't an answer but it was a lot convincing than any others.
The person who wrote drew this conclusion out from Jimmy's background.  
Jimmy was born on a Mission run by the Anglican Church, baptised at an early age, and had white values instilled into him, along with an entirely false assertion that to be accepted by the whites, you only had to behave like them.
Jimmy's open and accepting manner led him to believe this, and to spend his life in an attempt to belong to that elusive group, but even as he struggled to belong, he was breaking their moral code.

What the Aboriginal curator has said in the beginning of the post, I believe for Jimmy, there is no doubt that he wouldnt love his own race and his own brothers and sisters (the Aborignal tribe he belonged to), what he probably wished was rather than becoming one of the white, the acceptance and respect from the people he respected.